「我が子が死にゆく過程の記憶と共に生きてきた母親の語り」

田中, 雅美

臨床実践の現象学研究会

This study describes the structure of grief experienced by parents following the death of a child. Grief is considered a unique emotion that cannot be shared. As a method of approaching grief, we used a phenomenological approach suitable for extracting the structure of individual experiences. A mother feels “guilty” for the death of her child and the pain the child experiences during the death process. This “guilt” compels the mother to find the “best answer” for her child and sticks in her memory after the child’s sudden death. However, the mother breaks through the memory of her suffering with the remark, “I wish I hadn't been born.” he mother looks back on their days together by focusing on the birth of her child. The daily memories make her realize that her child chose her. By affirming herself, she was able to break her obsession with searching for the “best answer.”